To write or not to

Why has this always been a problem with me?Why is it that every time i start to think of writing something I quit?Why is it that it takes me two years and a positive comment to even think about writing on a web page which is probably never ever gonna be noticed by anyone?Is it because i don't have the guts to? Is it because i think of myself as a bad writer? Or is it because i am plain lazy?

Even as a start to write this my vision keeps restricting itself to that one key on the keyboard.That one key with the left arrow and backspace written on .I can only JUST stop myself from holding it down because i convinced myself that i am doing nothing useful otherwise.Well actually i got loads to do.Loads,I could call up my girlfriend and tell her how much i miss her and love her,but she probably would think i am lying.I could sit down and try to code a program for next week's lab ,knowing fully well that it wouldn't work .I could actually catch some sleep .Yet here I am typing my way to glory and probably torturing some bored unlucky bloke who stumbled across my blog.

Anyways,coming back,why should i write?its not like am great at it.Plus,my list of GRE words aren't that great.In fact it is pathetic.Plus,my language is bad.Plus,my thoughts are so difficult to be put down to words mainly cause i don't understand them most of the times.I still write,or want to write,because ,as i said I WANT TO WRITE.

Is there something wrong in mediocre people wanting to write? Why is it that people like me just don't want to write?Why is it that we have this preconceived notion that writing is reserved to the select few?Why is it that only people with exceptionally great works get the comment "Macha you can become a writer da"? Is not a writer someone who writes?Good or bad? Well what ever it may be .I am still going to write.For myself,I hope I do ..For you,I hope I don't.

Dorrie